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#1 Shine On

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Posted 18 May 2007 - 03:20 PM

This thread is going to be a very depressing and shocking post by me but this is one of the only places i can keep in contact with the lot of ya. Since everyone is busy.

Recently i've been having pain in the left hand side of my head near the temple. So today i went into hospital and had a CT scan on my head, chest and abdomen. Also a Bone scan in another department. I then went to the oncology area to go and see my Consultant and Dr to find out the results from one of the scans and it was the following...

I have 2 lots of cancer in my head, one in a lump on the side of my head and the other is another smaller lump right near the temple on the left hand side of my face. This has been causing alot of pain in the left hand side of my head and is also impossible to have any form of treatment to get rid of that.

I will be having Radiotherapy on that area of my head to help reduce the size of the tumor near my temple but there is nothing i can have to remove it totally. This is because it is right near a sensitive area of my brain and thus will cause some substantial problems if it was cut or anything >.<

There's nothing out there that i can have that will cure me of this, mostly because of where it is located. I can't have chemotherapy nor opperations cause of it being a sensitive area. There is nothing else i can have to help cure me so it's been classed that i've only got a limited amount of time left to live. Although it was never said how long i will have left.

I am predicting that i have around 6+ months left to live, but this is just a guess. Once i've had radiotherapy i will probably find out how long then...

This all seems like alot of bullshit or just generally naffness, but i am currently scared shitless atm. I would of told ya all in person, but everyone is busy so i can't interrupt you all any way at all. I just hope to meet you all at some point. I have so much i want to do on my own and with the lot of ya, i have limit (unknown how long) time left and so i really need to spend as much time with you all that i still have left sad.gif

I'm sorry for anything wrong i've done to you all... i just want to have a good end to my life. I'll need to do a will too at some point. There's no way to cure myself anymore :)

Talk to you all soon :p

Richard xxx

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Posted 18 May 2007 - 03:27 PM

as you know, I'm practically speach less over this, but what I can say is even though I'm an athiest, all we can do is prey for a miracle. Live well while you can mate. I hope to see you in Aus
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Posted 18 May 2007 - 03:41 PM

This is a true shocker. I am so sad to hear this. I really don't know what to say other then that and I hope you forfill all you want to do in life. Also, dont worry about you doing anything bad to anyone, your one of the kindest souls in this community and in the world. After my GCSEs, I will have to arrange a visit as I would really love to meet you in person.

Richard, I and this community will always be here for you, dont forget that. Please dont be sad, I know it will be hard not to, in fact I couldn't even guess the pain your in at the moment, but try to look forward to the rest of your time, go out there and live.

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Posted 18 May 2007 - 03:42 PM

i'm speechless, and i can't stop this feeling around me, we pray to god for a miracle, maybe he can still listen


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Posted 18 May 2007 - 03:51 PM

Jesus Rich, i'm sort of stuck for words. I mean I really don't know what to say. Sorry man. I wish there was a way that anything could be changed.

We will always be here to talk to you during this time mate. If you ever need to talk to someone I'll be around, just as you have when i've needed someone to talk too.

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Posted 18 May 2007 - 04:09 PM

You know my feelings on this, they reflect those of everyone else who is posting.

For what it's worth, I'm always there for ya mate. And indeed I promise I'll try my best to meet up with you again. Other than that, anything ya need, just say the word.

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Posted 18 May 2007 - 04:09 PM

rest assured life is only a tiny worthless sliver of light between two immensities of darkness

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Posted 18 May 2007 - 04:16 PM

Really sorry to hear it and some say life isn't fair, it sure isn't with you so without rambling further, like others said we are there for you :)
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Posted 18 May 2007 - 04:38 PM

I don't know what to say, I'm stuck for words..

All I have to say is that whatever happens, you will still be a truly respected member among everybody on this forum and in the community. We're here for you.
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Posted 18 May 2007 - 05:36 PM

Thank you people... sorry to say that i was leaving the other day and then find out all this fucked up news. The last thing i want to do is pile news like this on people but you all deserve to hear what is going on with me atm :(

I havn't been told how much longer i have left. i just hope things will be substantial enough for me to go out and about, visit some place and do something before my life packs in :(

Thanks people... sorry this is probably one of the worst news i could of told ya :(
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Posted 18 May 2007 - 07:07 PM

My God, this is absolutely wretched news to hear.
I'm sorry mate. I can only hope for a miracle of either science or god.
Well, I hope that you'll enjoy your life.
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Posted 18 May 2007 - 07:21 PM

I don't know what to say.. :)

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Posted 18 May 2007 - 07:33 PM

I have just shed a tear :) , I feel so sad right now :p , I barely knew you, but I still feel bad that your going to die.
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Posted 18 May 2007 - 07:46 PM

I never really got to know you more than that, but I was really shocked to read this.
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Posted 18 May 2007 - 08:54 PM

holy shit man, i can't believe this is happening. it's truly a pity that someone your age has to deal with something like this and that it's going to cut your life so short. i guess all i gotta say to that is see how long ya got and make the best of that time. hell, i say party like hell if ya want to, it's not like ya gotta worry about killing any brain cells :)

still, it's terrible tht you have to go trhough all this. if you ever need to talk, send me a PM, hit me up on AIM (my SN is doorsfan300), and i'll give you my msn when i get the internet on my actual computer. i'll be more that happy to talk to ya and lend a supporting hand. good luck, and i hope you have plenty of time to have the time of your life :)
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Posted 18 May 2007 - 09:02 PM

Make the best out of the last days of your life ok, enjoy the hell out of it.
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Posted 18 May 2007 - 09:59 PM

my grandad died of cancer. i was 3 at the time. i never knew him.
i dont know you, but i see you around her a lot and it will be sad to know that some one has actually died.
i say...dont be scared in dying. everyones time will come. it is just very very unfortuante that your time is earlier than it should be. i think your brave, seeing you have had cancer for a long time.

all i can say is, have fun until its your time. do something youve always wanted to do before you die. like parachute/bungee jump.

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Posted 19 May 2007 - 07:45 AM

I'll try and keep in contract with a fair amount of you all in my remaining time. Thing is i never was told how long i have left atm, but either way i need to try and do as much as i can in the mean time. If i can meet up with a fair amount of you at one point then i'll be happy to try that... :)
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Posted 19 May 2007 - 10:54 AM

Holy shit man i can not say how sorry i am. You truly are a great guy and you have helped probably most of use in one way or another.
I don't know what else to say because i am so shocked i cant even type right, Sorry man to hear this and i hope that you have a great time from now on! until the time has come.

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