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[Hogo]

I cant Laugh i have not seen the pic its IPB and i cant see it

[Kazyumi]

Goddamnit!
I've been lurking the philosophy boards now and then but I let this topic slip by my everwatching gaze? Oh my god.

I'm so sorry to hear about it man.
You're a good guy, and it's a terrible shame to hear this.
Why is it always the good guys.. :(
I wish you the most happiness in your last days, stick close to your family and friends.
Man I'm so astonished... :'(

I'll remember you man.
We will not forget you.

[Hostile]

Watch that radiation beam or you could wake up having grown a second head. "I'm with Stupid..."

http://www.bluelyric...pid_lyrics.html

[Shine On]

Rofl... one day Caspa. That will be in the tate modern

And Kaz thanks mate. Don't worry about me, this isn't exactly the most stable of moments in my life span but anything can happen... its jus they can't/don't have any treatment for me. However my last days can vary from 1week to 100 years... so i'm aiming for the long-term bit.

Heck i still need to go to the pub with a large portion of you people XD

[Warhawk]

This thread is going to be a very depressing and shocking post by me but this is one of the only places i can keep in contact with the lot of ya. Since everyone is busy.

Recently i've been having pain in the left hand side of my head near the temple. So today i went into hospital and had a CT scan on my head, chest and abdomen. Also a Bone scan in another department. I then went to the oncology area to go and see my Consultant and Dr to find out the results from one of the scans and it was the following...

I have 2 lots of cancer in my head, one in a lump on the side of my head and the other is another smaller lump right near the temple on the left hand side of my face. This has been causing alot of pain in the left hand side of my head and is also impossible to have any form of treatment to get rid of that.

I will be having Radiotherapy on that area of my head to help reduce the size of the tumor near my temple but there is nothing i can have to remove it totally. This is because it is right near a sensitive area of my brain and thus will cause some substantial problems if it was cut or anything >.<

There's nothing out there that i can have that will cure me of this, mostly because of where it is located. I can't have chemotherapy nor opperations cause of it being a sensitive area. There is nothing else i can have to help cure me so it's been classed that i've only got a limited amount of time left to live. Although it was never said how long i will have left.

I am predicting that i have around 6+ months left to live, but this is just a guess. Once i've had radiotherapy i will probably find out how long then...

This all seems like alot of bullshit or just generally naffness, but i am currently scared shitless atm. I would of told ya all in person, but everyone is busy so i can't interrupt you all any way at all. I just hope to meet you all at some point. I have so much i want to do on my own and with the lot of ya, i have limit (unknown how long) time left and so i really need to spend as much time with you all that i still have left sad.gif



I'm sorry for anything wrong i've done to you all... i just want to have a good end to my life. I'll need to do a will too at some point. There's no way to cure myself anymore

Talk to you all soon


Richard xxx

God man... that's horrible... hopefully they're wrong...

There's this drug being developed called DCA (not patented) by UniofAlberta that can supposedly cure most kinds of cancer by reenabling mitochondria and killing the cell.
Maybe you'll get lucky and they will get it out on the market.

[Shine On]

Thanks... dispite what these Dr's say and act i'm sure as hell not going to give up on life etc. Infact i've been trying to do the opposite... I just get sick and tired when some professionals just near enough give up on things because they can offer anymore treatment. And at the same time act like you should do the same...

I won't die anytime soon... i just refuse to Especially since i've spend the past 3 years fighting the bloody thing.

I should really start putting together that "things to do" list but when i get around to doing it my mind goes blank 0_o

[Carnotaurus]

Good. Keep fighting it. The longer you have a positive mindset, the better off you are. People who give up dont make it. I wish you the best of luck with fighting the cancer off. You've done it before, I am sure you can do it again with a positive attitude. Go Xeno!

BTW, can you fix the link to the mask image?

[Shine On]

Thanks

The server the pic is hosted on is just having a bit of maintainance atm, the link will be fixed later today

[Taralom]

sorry man,

too bad to hear it.
i'll certainly think about you

this thread goes in my sig

[Juissi]

Btw Xeno, I hope that it doesnt sound rude or anything but may I ask, are you afraid of dieing ?
Because some people say that they aint scared of anything, not even dieing and I was wondering are you

[Shine On]

This is what people seem to keep focusing IN on in the medical area. I just don't think about the death side of it, mostly due to the fact that i've NOT BEEN GIVEN a time-limit as to how long i have left to live... i could die in 5 mins or 50 years. It's just the Dr's and Medical staff have gone all "hyper" sympathetic just cause there is no treatment to cure the cancer atm.

I'm in a fairly fit state and i'm keeping a positive and open mind. I've delt with cancer for 3 years now so i'm sure as hell not going to throw in the towel just cause there isn't something they can do about it. I'll die when i die, i'm just going to try and do things more productively in my life from now on. Which i've been able to to do to a point.

So basically to cut a long story sort... No.

[Hobbes1098]

Don't sit in front of the comp all day. Get out and ride a bike, stay healthy, thats one way to fight cancer.

[Carnivean]

Everyone using the same avatars confused the shit out of me reading this topic...

Of course, I saw earlier but never really knew what to say... Anyway, I've never really talked to you much but you always came across as a nice bloke. Have my sentiments and hopes... and add me to the list of people who want to give you sweaty man hugs of love.

Edited by Suiseiseki, 12 June 2007 - 08:17 AM.

[Shine On]

@ Carnivean

[yuribeat5]

although this is my first post on this topic and dont really know u i pray for your safe recovery. i am a very strong believer in God and i believe that God knows whats best for u. whatever God has in store for u i wish u the best of luck. i also will pray that the doctors find a way to help u in any way even if its a slight chance.... slight chance is better than nothing. i have been hearing about u for a long time now and all i have to say is..... show that cancer who his daddy is!! show em whos boss and kick its ass!!!! again

[Shine On]

Yeah i know Mad and i do thank all of you for that support. And personally i think it's about time that this thread is probably forgotten or us all to move on from it.

It has been decided (by me) that i will NOT go anywhere anytime soon (as much as i can help it) and the last thing i want to do is to help keep a negative blanket or cloud over the community. I am still Xeno... and i will always be Xeno. Just with a different look on life...

Now where's the booze

[Rawlo]

w00t PARTY!!! heres teh beer!!!! don't know if my parrots gonna turn up ( @ MJ )

I'm also gonna bring some snags to throw on teh barby

[GodSun666]

Beer and BBQ = Roxors.. i hope i can come XD

[Elvenlord]

YES!!!!!
Wait....is there a differant drinking age over there in england........
Well, it doesn't really matter, I don't like the taste of beer